This morning, I had breakfast with my friend Steve.
Steve is a freelance tutor. He is a family man. Lately he has been through difficult times. Literally living on the edge. Hes shared with me that one thing that keeps him going.
He said he was inspired by Dr William. He is on wheelchair but it did not stop him from getting this doctorate, being a motivational speaker, breaking records in sports, raising fund for charity and achieving much more than most able bodied people.
Steven keep this quotation. Every morning when he wakes up, he will read this quotation. It says, "Focus on what you have, not on what you don't have"
This quotation was so apt and so timely. Lately I felt so lousy. I felt that I have failed as a son, as a husband, as a father. Just crying inside. What's there to live for when nothing good comes out of this life. If this life is not worth living, if nothing good comes out of this life, I tell God, take it away from me. I don't want to live another day of misery and pain. That's not the abundant life.
Is God talking to me? "Focus on what you have, not on what you don't have".
I went back to my computer. Check the forum. Someone post a link. Click on that website. Suddenly I saw a treasure house of knowledge. Normally one would need to pay hundreds of dollars for that knowledge. It must be worth thousands of dollars. That guy is crazy. He bought those stuff and give it away free.
Everything I need to know, it was there. It was free to me. Just learn it. It was too much. Information overload.
There are abundance in the world. But we are living in scarcity. What an irony.
God, what do I have that is of value? What can you make out this life? I am a clay..and you are the potter.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
God speak to me again?
Did God Speak to Me? Part I
Yesterday was such a strange day. Never got this before in my life. In the morning at 7am, Hazel sms me a text message. Why me? Why this message? Why at this hour when I am still in dreamland? Absolute no idea. Here was the message:
"Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, BELIEVE that you RECEIVE them, and you WILL have them." Mark 11:24
So fine, God ask me to ask, right? I went ahead and ask. "God," I said. "I want to provide for my family. God. Give me a job."
I have been sending resumes after resumes. No response. It's like crafting your masterpiece and they throw it in the trashcan. I love what I am doing as a freelancer. But the life of a freelancer is like a wave of feast and famine. Very unpredictable. That's not healthy when you have a family to support.
A few minutes passed. My mobile phone rang. Guess who? My ex-colleague,Goh called. He invited me to attend the farewell meal for my ex-manager. I'm touch. He still remembers me and treat me like a family.
Suddenly the idea came to me to ask him what happen to my post. I called him. He said my post was still vacant for 7 months. All these while he was doing the work of two persons. Poor him. I hear the voice of my ex-manager Jeff echoing in the background. "Come back. Don't be shy".
Is God speaking to me and opening a door of opportunity? I think so.