God speak to me again?

This morning, I had breakfast with my friend Steve.
Steve is a freelance tutor. He is a family man. Lately he has been through difficult times. Literally living on the edge. Hes shared with me that one thing that keeps him going.

He said he was inspired by Dr William. He is on wheelchair but it did not stop him from getting this doctorate, being a motivational speaker, breaking records in sports, raising fund for charity and achieving much more than most able bodied people.

Steven keep this quotation. Every morning when he wakes up, he will read this quotation. It says, "Focus on what you have, not on what you don't have"

This quotation was so apt and so timely. Lately I felt so lousy. I felt that I have failed as a son, as a husband, as a father. Just crying inside. What's there to live for when nothing good comes out of this life. If this life is not worth living, if nothing good comes out of this life, I tell God, take it away from me. I don't want to live another day of misery and pain. That's not the abundant life.

Is God talking to me? "Focus on what you have, not on what you don't have".

I went back to my computer. Check the forum. Someone post a link. Click on that website. Suddenly I saw a treasure house of knowledge. Normally one would need to pay hundreds of dollars for that knowledge. It must be worth thousands of dollars. That guy is crazy. He bought those stuff and give it away free.

Everything I need to know, it was there. It was free to me. Just learn it. It was too much. Information overload.

There are abundance in the world. But we are living in scarcity. What an irony.

God, what do I have that is of value? What can you make out this life? I am a clay..and you are the potter.